MISS STUBBORN

♥而我已经分不清, 你是友情还是错过的爱情.♥

2010-11-10T14:51:00.001+08:00

255 POST:
I'm finally free from N - level le! I'm so gonna scream out loud, but i'm so gonna enjoy my holiday and forget what school or teacher say. In the holiday mood soon! Like currently now. :D 11 days more to taiwan trip, can't wait for it to come! If i have a choice i'm not gonna go school if possible cause i want to work.

Don't know who the hell prevent me from signing in to msn. I'm so gonna slap the person.

♥永远没有所谓永恒♥

2010-11-01T14:50:00.002+08:00

256 POST:
People i'm back from taiwan on 9pm. I think some of my girlfriend did miss me! *so thick skin. I have buy lots of stuff for myself and my girlfriends too. Hope you guys like it. :) I'm so glad that my family has company me to walk so far to look for xiao zhu shop and definitely i brought a shirt from there. Going to love it, and a pink panter! :D I'm starting to miss the weather and food over there. Gosh! This is crazy. ^ ^

School is totally suck to the max. Every sec 4 student are not studying but enjoying their holiday, but what wrong with our school! Why are we still going back to school. This is totally stupid la. Grr. And some-more 2 weeks sia. :( Time please past quickly. Totally boring and tired to the max.

I love peixuan. I love felicia. I love Jonghyun. I love show. I love xiaotian.

♥Seeing you like this, it remind me the moment when i cried for him. The pathetic me from the past.♥

2010-09-02T14:20:00.004+08:00

254 POST:
I did really enjoy yesterday with my loved one to Malaysia. I had buy lots of stuff for myself and my stomach! And after this trip, it make me feel like going to Taiwan even more. My sister was a joker with me, we laugh like crazies, bulling each other. So duper funny la! After tat, go home and put other things and went to fetch my mummy. Went to our dinner and home sweet home. :D Watch the channel 8 show because it was the last ep. But i hate the ending la, can it be better or give us a fairytale ending or a sad ending, at least is better la. Oh my god! Watch channel U then in my lalaland. :)

Today i realise i have only 4-5 days to N- LEVEL SOCIAL STUDIES, so fast. Can i memories so many essay at one time. I don't think so. How i wish i can get a A2 or B3 because my English will definitely pull me down no matter how.Grr, time is running out. All the best everyone! Hope you guys can get below 19 point and proceed to Sec 5 in 2011. :D

The moments of breaking down in the past... .... ....
I remembered the time when i was foolish, crying in the night where no one knows. Hurting myself with the sharp edges things. Feeling so stupid, why should i do this to myself where he doesn't bother at all. When he doesn't know how was i feeling inside. He doesn't know how much i loved him, care for him and trusted him the most. Everything was over, after 3 months of break down. I finally become better. However, I still haven't forget you, but at least i did not hurt myself anymore. After months has past i finally let go of you... ... Therefore, i want to say is that: Treat yourself better, give yourself time to let him go, let him vanish from your life as a lover. Do not hurt yourself. Love yourself. You will definitely be all right w/o him. All you need was just TIME. If i can let go, i bet you can! :D Trust me nothing is impossible! Time will fade everything. (:

And definitely i will also remember the good & happy memory when i was with you... ...

♥I was trying to tell myself i can do it.♥

2010-08-30T14:30:00.004+08:00

253 POST:

Recently, i just got my result and i was quite surprise that i got this result. I'm not trying to be a hypocrite over here but i was really surprise. Because i actually get a c6 for my prelim. I was worried that i couldn't go up to sec 5 next year. Then all the effort, dream, parent dream will be gone. Quite depressing instead, i think Peixuan is also worrying about her studies too. " You definitely can la! Must study more & use less computer! :D " All the best to everyone who going to do N level in one week time. I hope my social studies won't make disappointed. Hope we could see each other in sec 5 room! :(

I can't wait for October to come so i can go oversea with my loved one! It will be a nice and enjoyable trip, i guess. If nothing goes wrong, hope nothing! I really want to go. :D I will definitely miss Peixuan, and i also think she will miss me! Cause she love me too much. (:

And i hope SHOW will come around November! Can't wait to see him, my belove hubby. Ily. :D

♥It has been so long without you being here.♥

2010-08-11T14:27:00.002+08:00

252 POST:
It was the first time that i enjoy my holiday from January till now. I'm kinda missing it even though is only yesterday and the day before! :D

I finally finish my DNT, and I'm so happy that i can relax and don't think about it anymore. But yesterday something funny happen, my uncle has give my dad a television but with no model on it. So i guess, this television won't last long... We went to buy the remote control and bind my DNT journal. After that, we went home way, My dad and i was fixing the television. We thought it was okay, so we went watching about 45 minutes. Suddenly there is a sound pro-pro-pro, next a little fire and here come the smoke! Gosh, what a nice scenario. In the end, my dad and i have to carry the "good television" outside, and i regret that i shouldn't bathe just now because I'm sweating! :( Hence, we replaced it with our old Mitsubishi televising. :)

I hope I'm irreplaceable in your heart. The one that no one can be replaced no matter how. :(

♥It's not the heart that makes you hurt, it's the mind. We think too much. ♥

2010-07-30T12:07:00.002+08:00

252 POST:
School > Home.
Quite dissapointed with my N level chinese result. But no choice crying over spilt milk. Hope i do better for O level chinese.

Most importantly today is SHOW's birthday! * Liying is :D :D, Drew is :) :)
Hope everything goes well for him, and hope he could come to singapore during November or December. Can't wait to go his concert. :D And definitely, i will enjoy like last time i did. Also can't wait to buy all the merichase before his concert. Grr. I will buy one shirt from his shop wen i save enough cash. And liying will definitely buy it straight away! :D

♥你的离开失去多少,我计算不了.♥

2010-07-28T21:11:00.005+08:00

251 POST:
Sick recently been vomitting and having fever, i'm still not sure if i'm really fine as i have some headache just now in the afternoon. Which really turn my face as white as a paper, it scare me away. Hope i will be better after the panodal. Hope i could go back school tomorrow! :)

I had bad dream when i was having fever, but somehow i can feel that the dream is real. It is something you want to told me, is something that will hurt me. However, i'm not gonna bother anymore, i have moved on, didn't i?! Seriously, i don't feel any pain... ...

♥Don't cry when things went wrong, cry because it over.♥

2010-07-23T17:05:00.013+08:00

250 POST:

Today went to school for combine humanities, and i know i definitely will fail this subject no matter what, I don't understand why must chapter 4 and chapter 5 become one question both of the essay are long and hard, how could people possibly score well unless they revise very hard. Haiyo, but in the end i choose governance, but i don't think i do well in that. Nevermind, since is already over, no use crying over spill milk. Recess with peixuan, yishu and jolene then went back to flip through the geography text-book awhile before the exam start. After seeing the question, i know that i confirm stuck in the middle as i don't know which topic to choose - River or Coast? They seems so same. In the end, i choose Coast when i only revise only river, god bless me! And lastly development. Hope geography help me to pass because social studies should be a big fat 0. After exam, miss toh suddenly told us got TOS. Everyone was shock and were disappointed for those who will attend it. Went to eat with peixuan after doing half way then went off.

Sometimes i always ask myself why? I have forgotton you, i don't love you anymore,
Why will you appear in my mind suddenly.

♥Cherish everything & everyone beside you before it left.♥

2010-07-22T13:56:00.005+08:00

249 POST:
Today was raining heavily, and i love it to the max. Then went for chinese paper 1 > recess with peixuan, aaron, jolene, felicia. > Toilet chatting > Left me and peixuan chatting outside the DNT room > Chinese paper 2 > Went to meet the person > Slack awhile > Currently at peixuan house > HOME! Found out that everyday is the same routine, bored. Tomorrow is humanities, and i think i definitely can't make it because i only start revising today. Gosh! Hope everyone do well in prelim ba! :)

It takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them and a lifetime to forget them.

Falling in love
is the simplest thing.
But finding true love
is the hardest thing.

♥Is time to let him go when you're hurting yourself too much.♥

2010-07-21T16:07:00.007+08:00

248 POST:
Today lesson as normal, everything was the same when school start. Just hoping to hear the rang bell means school ends. Even though, recently does not have any homework but it not a good things it means exam is coming soon. Grr, i hope i won't get more than 20, but i don't think is kinda possible. Tomorrow have chinese prelim, and i don't know if i have the motivation to do all, all i will give up doing half way. Haiyo, gosh sia, i think i am become lazier and lazier. Friday have humanities means social studies and geography, it is going to kill me! ): Just relink & delete some of my friend old link. (:

Here it goes:
I need your motivation to bring me up, you always lifted me when i couldn't breathe. I was everything i am because you love me. You give me wings to let me fly high. I was blessed because i was love by you. You were always there for me. The tender wind that carried me. A light in the dark shining your love in my life. You've been my inspiration. Through the lies you were the truth. My world become a better place because of you. I hope when i turn back, i could see you telling me " No matter how far we're, no matter how, i will still love you. "

♥Why did i have to fall in love with you?♥

2010-07-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

247 POST:
Today weekend usual, people are having fun, i'm rotting. Headed to tuition, then went see awhile. Found out my degree le. :) Then buy a potato with cheese, it was introduce by super junior. Wow! It was quite nice too, you guys should go try! Then take bus with peiyi > Home > Watch television > Peiyi house > LALALAND! :)

So tell me why, why did i have to fall in love with you. Without you, i can't function no more. You never look at me the same. You're driving myself insane.

♥How could i survive when you say goodbye.♥

2010-07-16T17:35:00.005+08:00

POST 246:
Yesterday i was late for school, and my good daddy worry that i was late and go for detention so he keep on nagging on me. I won't blame him, since is for my own good. Chinese prelim was today, when i got the paper my mind was totally blank. Feel that all the question is the same sia. Don't know which to answer in the end i choose question 1 and 4. I think is the easiest among all ba. Then paper two come, the close passage i don't think i couldn't get 5 off it correct. Hope thing goes well. :)

After school, listening some talk for chinese listening compre then went home with felicia to get my Dnt file. Grrr, hate when it is after raining, have to walk all those muddy and sandy grass or floor. Went to find miss tan, draw draw draw, guess what is still drawing. Headed to peixuan house after that, talk with her. Guess heading home soon, and will continue drawing & watching shows. People are looking forward to weekend but not me i guess, weekend is just a day that i don't have to wake up early in the morning, but i still have to went for tuition.

I don't how much i means to you, but i hope i rather don't know. Cause i don't want the answer to be not what i'm always hoping for.

♥Did you hear my thought, i doubt so.♥

2010-07-13T07:53:00.004+08:00

245 POST:
Currently in school posting blog. Prelims is coming soon, and i'm not well prepared. Left many things haven't study yet, hope i can make it on time. Worst still, my Dnt is not done yet and the deadline is on 19 july. Oh my gosh! Who can help me sia? Worry that i couldn't go up to 5N next year, my dad even have a bet with me, a heavy bet! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DOMINICK! :)

Just a random thought, a random title for today blog...

♥I always wanted to said that i'm fine, but i always fail.♥

2010-07-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

POST 244:
Too many things had happen recently, Easy having breakdown, and i don't know why. Hope things are going to be better soon, if not ... ... just wondering am i really okay? Haiixx.

And i screw up my English oral la. :( Haiyo, dominick don't be sad about your oral, is over. Haha.

Having theatre of success later, and tuition too. I seriously hate monday! Lucky, still have some people companying me! And my good daddy, hope he will fetch me later.

And SPAIN WIN!!!!! (: (:

If you know that i still care about you, what will you do?

2010-05-27T15:17:00.004+08:00

243 POST:

Recently have a hard time waking up in the morning as i'm really tired. Has been sleeping all days, don't know why. 0- level chinese is on 31 may, but i'm not scare or worry at all. Gosh! Don't know what has happen to me seriously. Hope everyone can get A1 so won't have to retake again! Must save money recently, so i could watch part two of 舞法舞天! And buy the gift, and this time i'm going early to buy those gift. Enjoying yesterday steam-boat at my house with my family, hoping that there will be a second time ba. Peixuan must eat steam-boat with me hor. Haha. June holiday is coming, but it doesn't look like it a holiday for us but only for primary and sec 1 - 3, so people should enjoy sia! Cause we're here suffering instead, going school like everyday till 5pm. It totally suck to the max! :(

"When you tell someone your secrets, you're actually give them a chance to hurt you." It quite true indeed. Just a phrase i saw it at my sister book recently.

♥I can see your tears, but i couldn't do anything.♥

2010-05-24T15:57:00.005+08:00

242 POST:

Helloo, i'm here to post again. Haha. Show concert was really nice to the max! He can dance well and sing well, and has a cute and handsome face too! Wow, hope he come to singapore soon. :) Due to some reasons i couldn't go to the signature thingy, feel kinda wasted as he is flying away on Monday. Haiyo, then no choice lorhh, just hope he come back soon! I'll go de. :)

School was totally suck! We have been doing chinese like hell from the morning. Oh my god, don't know who make this decision, still have to bear it for like 3 days. Who can help man?! Please change some of the time-table, it will be better. Having tuition later, but tuition homework is not done yet. Gosh! Need motivation man. And Peixuan is like slacking man, haha. She was not feeling well in the morning, so never go school! Bad girl. ):

Touching song. ):
搞笑 - 罗志祥
那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

♥First love, you taught me to love you fully.♥

2010-05-18T18:45:00.007+08:00

241 POST:
Finally post after a long break, a real long break. Yesterday, i was having fun as i went to shake hand with Show Luo, cause i buy the concert ticket, even though i buy the cheapest of all, but i still looking forward to it. On Saturday, hehexx! Hope everything going to be all right, hope so.

Today getting my result, almost everything i guess. I'm surprise that my social studies and my DNT pass which i think i will fail. And my English have a big red mark! Fail badly, expected. And Monday-Thursday is all Chinese lesson, i'm gonna turn crazy soon! I don't want, i don't think any humans will want too. Haiyo. ):

UTADA HIKARU- First Love
sa i go no ki su ha
ta ba ko no flavor ga si ta
ni ga ku te se tsu na i ka o r
a si te no i ma go ro ni ha
a na te ha do ko ni i ru n da ro u
da re o o mo tsu te ru n da ro u
you are always gonna be my love
i tsu ka da re ka to ma ta ko i ni o chi te mo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
i ma ha ma da ka na si i love song
a ta ra si i u ta u ta e ru ma de
ta chi do ma ru ji ka n ga
u go ki da ma da so u to si te ru
wa su re ku na i ko to ge ka ri(
a si te no i ma go ro ni te ru
wa ta si ha ki tsu to na i te ru
a na ta o o mo tsu te ru n da ro u
you will always be inside my heart
i tsu mo a na ta da ke no ba si yo ga a ru ka ra
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
i ma ha ra si i wu ta u ta e ru ma de
a ta ta si i u ta u ta e ru ma de
you are always gonna be my love
i tsu ka da re ka to ma ta ko i ni o chi te mo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the noe
ma da ka

♥If you love something, let it go.♥

2010-04-03T22:34:00.006+08:00

240 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Wake up damn early today around 0905, then clear my room cause there is "auntie" coming my house, then after awhile watch Autumn Concerto, is a nice show man! Then watch a DVD called : When a dog love a cat. Around 5 episode, watch until 0530, have my lunch. Then sleep awhile around 0730, watch channel 5, then now channel U, make me so sad. Gosh! I'm too emotional man. Dad should be coming soon and here my prata! Wow, ppls don't be jealous. Guess i will be revising some of it for the social studies if not i'm really going to get 0. Tomorrow tuition day guess i won't be posting any post cause i will be chionging my homework. And monday i will be having dance practice then tuition so won't be posting too, so people don't miss me! :D Lots

Homework are undone:
-Geography worksheet
-Social studies test with 3 topic
-Dnt

I hope you're not the one that i been thinking of and wishing to.

♥I just wanna said that you're a good guy that i loved.♥

2010-04-02T20:50:00.006+08:00

239 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
I have been sleeping the whole day, and have supper with my family. Then watching E entertainment with my beloved sister. Ring Ding Dong! (:

I know you're the one.

♥Act like I don't care, so i won't feel so miserable.♥

2010-04-01T20:09:00.004+08:00

238 POST: Lazy to post picture. Need time to find and upload.
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Woke up late today around 0640, quickly rush to school. Heng uhs. Btw, today is Aprilful day and Bryan birthday! Happy birthday to you. I have to wait for like 9 months man. ): Then class as normal, went for recess, then lesson. Last period was quite fun and enjoyable with a bunch of cute people, bryan himself singing like mad, jerome acting cute, and junsheng acting blur. Oops! Lots of laughter indeed, then finish my homework before leaving, say bye to peixuan. Buying my lunch at 3 plus, stay bus home. Tired recently, no matter how long i sleep le, i still felt tired, don't know why. Then went to have nice nap and finally parent at home le. If not i become the single soul through out. Tomorrow i think i will be rotting at home and chiong all my homework is possible cause i won't have much cash recently, so i must control myself not to shop. Only can next week or further. Sorry jessery! Hope everyone will enjoy tomo as i know everyone will be out with friends, only the pathetic me. ):

I wish i know the truth behind you, so i can see you clearly rather the hypocrite of you ....

♥Try to smile even though is hard.♥

2010-03-31T20:02:00.003+08:00

238 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Woke up late despite i put quite many alarm, maybe I'm too tired recently. Then get already off i go school. Lesson as per normal. Then eat noodles, then off to class for ssl, but don't know what the hell has happen, no teacher and i carried on sleeping till 330, then went home. Wasted everyone time indeed.

I'm kinda worry if i can promote to sec 5, kinda worry if i have no money to spend, kinda worry if i lost her, kinda worry if i'm alone always, kinda worry if family is not going any better, kinda worry if i'm slacking alot, kinda worry if i .... ....

If you're the that try to make me feel happy, I'm glad even if you fail, at least you did try.

♥Don't put someone so important.♥

2010-03-30T21:26:00.003+08:00

238 POST:
Too many things has happen, lots of tears has flow down. Don't feel like saying why. I'm still the same. Hope things are going to be okay, and have money to spend. (:

Please i don't feel like arguing with you larhh due to money problem. I can take that as a donation, since you're so busy and you think that i didn't even try. Please open your eyes big enough larhh, saying like i force you, can't you said no. Don't put all the blame on me, blame yourself too. -.-

♥Is what you didn't said that hurt the most.♥

2010-03-21T01:26:00.005+08:00

238 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Wake up then went to get already and have breakfast with my family w/o my sister, as she is working. Then went to Hougang Mall shop shop then went for tuition until 5pm, buy something. Dad fetch me home, off to flying kite. The kite is damn big, is bigger than me. Hahass, there will be photo soon, wait patiently. Then went home, conflict happen. Had dinner at peiyi house, then do homework together. Around 10, go home, then now I'm bloggging. Tomorrow going to be a hard day for everyone. Still have tuition at the night. Tired man. Can the heaven drop $$ for me, seriously there are so many things i want to have like, clothes, high heel, I touch, Show Luo concert, and many more... ... Hope dad will be the angel or someone intro me jobs. Hahass.

Are things going to be okay for us. Are you giving up already, or you're trying hard?

♥I'm confused by all your actions and words.♥

2010-03-20T12:51:00.007+08:00

237 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Wake up very early today to open the door for a Auntie then my sleep is ruin, maybe I'm too tired le, so i can still went back to sleep despite the Auntie keep asking me things. Then have breakfast, watch the show which make me tears a little. Then use com till 7pm, the watch a funny show in channel 5, then , back to com awhile jiu in lalaland le. Tomo tuition time, then HOLIDAY is finish le, it ends so fast, i haven't enjoy enough yet. Sobb. I want more holiday, can i?

I don't know why, even though i feel like knowing the reason, but i just couldn't dare to ask you why. Cause i know it will worsen it, am i going to continue to let it be like this. Who can tell me why, I'm confused by you, your action, your words. It become lesser and lesser each day, i can't think of anythings to tell/talk you anymore, I'm once again speechless. Do you know how i feel? Thinking of the reason you told me/ Seeing the reason you write it somewhere, i hesitate again, are we already to be together, is there any misunderstanding or problem that stop us or this is just a another story that ends our relationship? It hurt days by days, using my smile to hide the tears. I wonder why when peoples are happy, I'm suffering instead.

Hate the days is raining, is making feel like crying more.

♥If only i could control things and that will be you.♥

2010-03-19T23:02:00.006+08:00

236 POST:
What i do today, please read it, if you're curious/concern about me, if not press the X over there:
Wake up early today for breakfast with aaron, then went jessery house awhile. Then went to "paris ris" and have fun awhile with some class-mates, they are such a joker. Then is time to leave, jessery pei me. Thank's jessery! Then on the way meet till Dominick, then force to join us. Then reach traffic, then they leave le. Wait for bus, got fall asleep awhile. Buy green-tea then went to tuition. Dad fetch me home, mummy buy a short pants and 3 quarter pants for me, so shock sia! Then watch teve, cook noodles, now bloggging. And finally tomo is a show that i love: MU CHEN & XIAO LE. (:

I really don't know what the matters about this situation, getting to be tired about all the rejection. It seems like history is repeating again. I really don't know what to do, is it true that even though everything is fine after the quarrel but there are still crack in between us. I really wish there are things i could control and that is you. But i know i can't cause you're not my property. Can you tell me what is the problem now? I wish to know...

Trying to make myself busy or having fun so i won't think about you, the shaky friendship we have.

♥Are things going to be okay after the falling rain-drops?♥

2010-03-18T11:11:00.011+08:00

235 POST:
I think this is very a good new for Liying and Show Luo fans. Hahass. He is coming to Singapore at 22 May. Wow! $187, I hope i can save the money and go there. It will be great. And hope that my dad can give me some money for this too, hope so. (: Still have to cook for my two lazy sibling and that is my brother and my sister. And finally hope my sister can pass the interview she have today. God bless her! And my brother is leaving me behind as he is going to sing k-box with his friends. Grrr, i should have said okay to Aaron larhh, sibei regret due to my laziness. Why.

Is hard to talk to you, i did try. But from my part of view is hard for me to see your afford, you seems busy or couldn't contact through. I'm just scared if things continue like this, I'm going to get tired easily. Cause i feel so far away from you. Will you feel the same like i do?

If you are thinking that I'm still loving you and you're definitely wrong.

Save money :
@ Peixuan present & Seoul Garden around $50
@ Show Luo $187
@ I-Touch $500

♥Wondering what will happen after that?♥

2010-03-17T20:20:00.002+08:00

234 POST:
It is so nice that my post is 2-3-4. Hahass, lame me. I'm really a pig that i sleep until 1115. And jessery is currently at my house. We are going off soon. Don't miss me, i know you will. (: I'm so happy that i win! ^^

Don't understand the difference... It has been days since we talked, i don't know why things turn out this way. Maybe is hard for us. I'm already used to lose the person i loved. I hope it won't be the 5th time anymore. Cause the feeling is totally suck.

When it always come to love, i always stop for a moment. Cause i don't know what to said, as i can't think of anything to say about you. Even sometimes i try to force myself to remember the feeling and moments, nothing came in my mind, is just blank. I'm already gone forever in your life since that date. And i believe you're gone too.

♥So close yet so far.♥

2010-03-16T18:18:00.010+08:00

233 POST:
Had to wake up early, even though i can't. I still have to force myself too. 8-10am, miss toh lesson. Then 10-1130 actually should be physics de. But teacher very good ends at 1045. Then went to mac actually want to eat breakfast de, but don't have le. Then slack awhile then eat mac spicy. Waiting for jessery 372, then i went home. Sleeping time. Then com a long day, a shock that dad never nag at me. Hmmm, feel like playing bowling this few days, going to make my wishes come true asap le. (:

What have i done to you, must you do this to me. I'm just asking nicely on behalf of other, yet what is your answer. Did i do wrong? Please don't attitude me when I'm not the one who at fault. I'm not a punch bag. I'm your friend, do you know? It hurt me to see what you write/said. Don't make me give up. Cause is tiring for me to keep telling myself it okay. Things are going to be better, is just a minor problem. And are you going to tell me nicely how you feel, as i said I'm willing to listen to all your troubles even it take me hours.

♥ hey yo ♥

2010-03-15T18:10:00.002+08:00

Since currently audrey is doing her english tuition hmework .

Peixuan is here to help her bloq .
She was sooooooo lazy to do her work that she always
chiong at th last min ! YES last min as always hahas xP .
been helping her and her sis to do th blog shop thingy ! camara garl ! teehees

Help them took photos ! tired when iie 1st reach her hse . banging her door like nobody
people might think iie am some loanshark trying to get back money etc . hahas lools
my hand pain like hell larhh ! RWAR ! ate mega spicy upsize ! full ! damn full !
help them make their blogshop , recode it etc . add and delete .

LOTS OF LOVES ----- >
PEIXUAN

♥Gal, the promise you told me, is that still available for now?♥

2010-03-14T01:04:00.004+08:00

231 POST:
Gosh! And i still haven't do my homework yet. Even though is a MARCH HOLIDAY! But it doesn't look like, due to the homework and the days that we are going back school. And i don't know how to ask daddy for some money for the things i want. And i have to be more careful when i spend $$, cause there are many events lately, and specially some of them are leaving us, and of course my dearest peixuan birthday.

Life is better now, i finally walk out of the 'darkness'. I won't get mood swing so easily, i won't cried suddenly. I won't do all those emotion stuff so much anymore. When i know the truth, i don't feel sad or jealous like last time i do. Maybe is really true that i have forgotten about you. I will remember the happy moments of ours but i will forget that i actually had a hard time to overcome this. Cause sadness is meant to be forget. Isn't it?

Even though i have forgotten him, but you're still important to me too. I also don't want to lose you either. Hope everything goes well for me and you. Is hard for us to be like last time. I didn't wish time could go back, cause i know that if two parties are willing to try, things are going to be the same too. And i hope that you actually feels the ways that i'm feeling now. The trust, the care and concern, the happy moments, and all the things that we overcome. I hope you never forget... I hope we're still so close, the sworn sister you said before, do you still remember? I hope you do... ...

♥After so many months, i finally did it.♥

2010-03-13T13:55:00.008+08:00

230 POST:
Getting the result i have I'm not really satisfy, but i have no choice, due to my emotion i neglect it. But i still try to focus in it, even though is hard. But luckily, i didn't fail all. I fail 3 still, which is English, combine humanities and O level Chinese. But what make me mad was that my Chinese get 49.1, i just need 0.9 to pass.

Even we have been back, even if i try not to care or remember about the past. Sometimes what you said, but sometimes your words really hurt me. Sometimes i could cry because of it, i didn't even told a single soul. Hope it going to be all right.

I finally let it go, believe it or not. I finally sang the song w/o you a tears rolling down or feeling sad or regretted, and i did it. Even though i took me like months to do it but i finally don't love you anymore. It a final goodbye!

Regarding of my daily: Rotting at my house from morning to now, and i'm still alone all this while. It has been 8 hours le. Gosh! Bored to the core. Think that i must save money on my own, dad is not going to help me. ):

♥Sometimes is better to keep it to yourself.♥

2010-03-09T16:08:00.003+08:00

Okay, since audrey is busy now playing with xiu ping (peixuan's baby sister). I here by, Onn Jia Hui shall help her blog today!

So, for today, audrey kept on sleep during lesson, like always can? every minute you look at her, her head is always on her table. So E-maths lesson, audrey and i were talking about our past of relationships and alittle on friendship while doing our corrections on our ca1 e-maths paper.
Also, she was complaining how careless she was, will not she will be able to score better for the paper.

After that, had physic, i did quite well in my physic exam. YAY ME! :D
So, again, when its ms toh period, ms toh wanted to go throw the maths journal but everyone didn't really care about what she was doing, and jaslin were "disturbing" ms toh also. She then got really piss off and start shouting at us, of course we were like OMG first time seeing her like that. And then later on, she teared and i think most of us started to feel guilty.

Now, she is playing with the baby, and the baby is gonna to crying so soon!
I better go and help her before she screw her up XD

BTW, I ROCKS AUDREY'S LIFE. :D

loves,
jiahui in the house!

♥ Mixed feelinq; i'm speechless by your words.♥

2010-03-04T17:29:00.003+08:00

I'm shock to see this, but i have no choice due to my own curiosty. Regret seeing this, i rather i don't. Mixed feelinq now, who can qive me some advice so i know what i should do. Are you really the same, or i am the one that is chanqing like what you said. ):

♥I thought i couldn't breakdown like last time i would, but i still fail.♥

2010-02-22T13:15:00.003+08:00

227 POST: I touch>Handphone>Lappy>Camera.
Helloooo! It has been a lonq time since i last post my bloq. Sometimes i have been bearing with myself and bearing with people too. Sometimes what people say do really hurt me. But i have to act like i don't even bother. Sobb. It okay that i been endure, but i really hope i won't break down so easily. Haiixx. Usinq my anqry tryinq to hide the realy feeling that i have. Trying to act i was brave.

Happy anniversary to twinnie! It has been 1 year and 7 months. There are many thinq has happen bewteen us. ILY! Hope we won't break our promise of doinq thinq. Rmb the sweet moment that we bee tqt, and forqet the past. That been hurtinq us. Smile. (:

♥Sometimes i wish i didn't isolated myself like last time.♥

2010-02-15T23:11:00.004+08:00

226 POST:
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! Hope everyone has enjoy this few days. And get many money from ppls right? Hahass. And i'm still wondering if i should buy a headsets that costs $23. Hahass. I hopefully haven't finish my homework and still having fun indeed. Lastly, i haven't buy jessery Airen present still. Gosh! She is going to nag at me and worst still maybe i cannot go on wed. Hehexx. Hope she won't be mad at me ba.

I don't know am i thinking alot of think this few days, maybe i have experience people i loved dearly has left me. That's why making me worryveri easily. I hope you won't find it irritating. Cause i really can't control of having this kind of thoughts. I couldn't control my mind. How i wish can. Cause it really a nightmare that the two people i loved leave me. I hate the feeling. I hate the time i isolated myself. There are times i kept those feeling inside and never say to anyone. But how i wish i could have a listening ear. But i know is hard to have one. Cause i'm not someone that willing to say and i'm also worry that i wll get hurt easily if i say secrets. Haiixx. ):

♥Sometimes i don't know why the reason.♥

2010-02-12T13:38:00.004+08:00

226 POST:

Sometimes i wonder what is the wronq with me? Makinq you like this to me. Or is your mood swing? Seriously i feel like askinq you, but i don't know what answer will you give me. And will the answer hurt me or make us further. Or what? I'm just worried. Maybe you have your problems but I'm willing to hear it all. Even if it qrandparent story. I don't mind, i just wanna know how you feel. I talk you nicely but you reply in a hush tone. I really don't know how to continue talking with you. It hurt me directly but i have to act like i don't feel anythinq. Do you know how much i care about you? I hope you could understand me, and tell me what wronq in a good way. I won't blame you. Can we be like this? I hope so. Less and less topic. Wonder do you feel it? ):

Today i wake up around 7am, and daddy give me a choice to qo school at 10am. So funny lorhh. I was like still have to qo school then just rush everythinq lorhh. Sleep quite long today cause seriously tired. Then assembly le. Is so cute larhh. Hahass. Then went to peixuan house awhile. Should be qoinq home and get already for physic tuition le ba. Haiixx. I scare i will be sleepinq in class later. Gosh! Haiixx. )':

Sometimes human have lots to say but nothinq came out. How i wish we have someone could understand us more than we understand ourselves. Maybe is she has already appear in my life, but somethinq is wronq with us recently. We become a little stranqer not like last time we do. How i i wish time could qo back to the way it was.

♥讓想念繼續,讓愛變透明.♥

2010-02-11T12:02:00.007+08:00

225 POST:

It okay if you don't wanan talk to me or maybe you hate me. I don't know but i will try not to mind it like what ppls say cause i'm just making myself because of you.
You still meant alot to me, how i wish time could go back to the way it was.
Hope won't be apart like we used to be.
Finally i post something le. Recently too much things has happen and i don't feel like writing it all out. Cause is not even helping anything. Hope everything will be all right and i could smile like last time. CNY is coming, valentine is coming too! And i'm saving $. Wondering will i have any gifts, foolish thinking. But i still worry i'm not going to pass my common test man. Haiixx. And wish by march start, my dad will pei me to buy a new phone. And have more hongbao man. Then can buy lots of stuff for myself and my loved one. Cutting hair later and gladly peixuan will be going with me. And maybe at night going to Ikea, don't know if peixuan wanna come along? Cleaning my room recently as CNY is coming. Currently i'm mad about HI MY SWEETHEART lorhh. Even though the show start about 1230 i still watch. Hahass. Cause is damn funny and sad. Hahass.

How i wish i'm happy once again but i'm not sure of myself cause i know it a nightmare to be w/o you. Cause i'm still missing you. ):

♥就像是你多變的表情♥

2010-02-05T15:02:00.006+08:00

224 POST:
I don't know what has happen to me. I really wanna a answer from myself. Starting to hate myself for being so useless as i know the reason. Of being so quite and dao sometimes. Or i don't know why. People who can help? I wondered. Become worst to worsen. I hope I'm okay, but is hard for me. Isolating is what i can do for the being. Hate myself. Mood swing is worst too. Everything seems so worst recently. Everything crash. Like study, tuition,friends. Starting to give up, if i can. But i know i can''t. Thinking negative again and again. Don't let me think, i don't want history to repeat again and again, I'm tired of you. I'm tired of facing the truth, don't feel like seeing you as it make me think of you now and then. The moment that can never leave my mind even months pass. How i wish my love story never start so then it will never ends with tears. Trying to think positive, and hopefully hope i can.

♥雨陪我哭泣;看不清;我也不想看清.♥

2010-02-05T14:53:00.002+08:00

223 POST:
To my surprise, mood swing was such a irritating trouble for me. And i don't feel hunqry, as i usally do. Isn't that good? I hate it. Is the same everyday. Actually wanting to go home after school, but don't feel like poning physic SSL. I know is kinda shock but just don't feel like, don't know why too. Then stay for it when to buy noodles and chat alittle with rachel and wenting. Then take bus homed. My dad was shock to see me home so early. Like i very bad like that. Gosh! Then pei him watch show then he go back his office. And my dad is old le, keep forgetting his things like letter and hand-phone. Hahass. Then watch show luo watch until i sleep sia. Grrr. Then i overslept till 730 as i suppose to meet my mummy at compass then nevermind. We go compass together eat SUBWAY. Then buy MAC WING, and see someone lorhh. JESSERY and her grandma. So sorry that i scare her Ahma. Sorry! Then went to watch television till 1230. Then went to sleep with my eyes watery. Don't know why. ):

I don't know why, i just couldn't control my feeling, it qetting stronqer day by day. And isolating myself is the only way i could think off.

♥Indeed time will not stop because of anyone.♥

2010-02-02T16:46:00.004+08:00

223 POST:
Wow! In the early morning, i was so glad that i didn't caught by DM wor. Hahass. And during assembly rules have changed. Got caught, you'll have to buy the whole packet of pins and if you socks is different from other people, you'll have to buy too. Gosh! Then recess went to eat, lucky have people companying me. Then physics teacher was so angry with us. Haiixx. Hope he calm down le. Then have E math lesson do the graph finally i'm get it correct. And now miss toh is teaching PROBALITY. Oh, that is hard, i didn't even understand 100% during my tuition. Gosh! Eee, i still prefer standard deviation. It is 100% better man, just using calculator. ^^ After school, that a weird thing about me, i don't feel hungry even a little bit. { I know i'm fat } Then went to buy drink with jessery. Intend to buy for Benjamin but the auntie took out the caps then i didn't buy for him le. Millie still beg me for the caps but is not i don't want give you uhs. Sorry! Hahass. Then went to remedial. Suddenly something is wrong with me, my back and head is starting to pain. Don't know what the reason too. Haiixx. At first thought i was sick but i'm not. Maybe sudden headache ba. Hope i'm okay! And CNY is coming in 12 days time and so do VALENTINE DAY! Hope I will have fun ba! And the auntie is coming my house to clean my room when i'm not at home she going to make my room turn to HELL. Peixuan is so sickening. She is hinting me something. Here she go :" Valentine day is coming, wondering who will buy me present." "But those waiting for my present have to wait long long le." So obvious right? Gosh! I will buy a _______ for her. HEHE. ^_^

Feel so sorry, baby i'm so lonely. Are you all right? I never meant to hurt you.

♥爱不单行 ♥

2010-02-01T17:55:00.004+08:00

222 POST:
Hellooo! Ppls if you know me well, you should know that i love 22 very well. And therefore is my 222 post. Hehexx. And i know i'm lame. Hahass. But who care. Basically all i do recently is study and tuition and watching HI MY SWEETHEART & AUTUMN CONCERTO! It damn nice man. I guess those people that watch won'y disagree. Like that crazy peixuan from ep 1 chiong until 13. When I tell HER this show. She was so interested and keep pester me to say the whole story out in the mrt. So funny lorhh. Hahass. Haiixx, have tuition again. Gosh! Lucky i have finish the homework if not teacher gonna call my parent. Siao one. Until 9pm lehh. Sianxxxx. Wow! Download many song and picture. I'm going to be late for tuition le. BYE people.!

i'm happy to see you happy.

♥值得你的爱确定不是我♥

2010-01-28T18:23:00.003+08:00

221 POST:
Bacially my life is still the same, don't know i should describe as happy or sad or angry. Maybe i don't really feel anything ba. Trying veri hard to forget, trying to use time to get over all my emotions so i won't feel so sucky anymore. Hope i really could do it. Serioulsy tired, i believe everyone is. But sometimes we have someone to be there. But now mine is gone, is hard for me to find it again. And hopefully hope that saturday i could go to bugis man. To buy the things i want. Hehexx. And tuition, gosh!! Maybe i wonder am i really too _____, why can i still feel the _____ when i'm in school. IHATEIT. I really don't know what to do but sleep in class. It suck man. Maybe i really change but is no tat easy to be open up. Cause i'm not that kind. Who can i open up to? I need someone badly. ):

Hope we won't, we won't be separate.
I don't understand why did the hell i bother about you man. Is like i shouldn't really care how you change. Cause i'm not fit to. FORGET!

♥开始忘记我们都爱过 ♥

2010-01-27T18:43:00.003+08:00

220 POST:
This is not i want. And is not wat i wished. How i wish i could, but is really only me here. I hate it. Is back to wat we're. Communication break down. I'm worry things will gone bad like is used to. I really don't know who to said. I don't know how long can i carry this happy smile on my face, cause i'm tired of it. I see you, and indeed you change like wat you say, maybe is time for me to.. But do you really change till like this?

♥不爱我请离开我♥

2010-01-25T17:43:00.000+08:00

219 POST:
萧亚轩 -倒数
怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麼处处在意我
越害怕伤害我我感觉越难受
你不懂我没你想象脆弱
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
知道你的爱你确定不是我

下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著越加速疏远了
别触碰我在深藏的笑容
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久
爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
值得你的爱你确定不是我
是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪突然夺眶而出快要不能自己
难很困难再这样说的多快乐
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记我们都爱过
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
值得你的爱你确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的

♥It been a long time.♥

2010-01-13T16:44:00.002+08:00

218 POST:
It been a long time since i post. Yarhh, sec 4 is definitely didn't from sec 3. It like sec 3 we can have fun, but till sec 4 is stress like hell. Everyday homework and revision. Haiixx. Sobbb. I don'y think i can use com so often nowaday. Sobb. Jiayou's everyone! Smile. ):

Life is not easy as we thought. Hope life would be better than now. Laughter more. Smile more.

♥A new start for everyone include me!♥

2010-01-04T14:35:00.002+08:00

217 POST:
Helllooo! I know i mia quite long le. So i'm here to write again. But not much wordy. Cause no time. Hahass. Soon there will be photo to entertaining you guys. Jiayous everyone! (:

Just normal like last time.

♥You're with him now, i just can't figure it out.♥

2009-12-29T21:43:00.004+08:00

216 POST:
You're with him now, i just can't figure it out. Maybe i regret everything you say, no way to take it all back. Now I'm on my own. I will let you go. I will never understand. Tell me why you're so hard to forget. Don't remind me, i'm not over it. Tell me why i can't seems to face the truth. Tell me why you're so hard to forget.I really don't know what to do. I'm just a little too not over you.

♥Sometimes we human are confused.♥

2009-12-28T21:26:00.003+08:00

215 POST:
Suddenly mood swing: Emoing..
Manage to wake up so early, i was quite shock. Then went to get already to go school buy book. And got a free ride. Hehexx. Kinda nothing to blog about, will have picture soon. People i know my blog kinda boring cause i really have nothing to write about, hope my tag board is still alive. School is starting soon! Is that meant to be a good news or a bad one? But i quite enjoy the life i have now. Don't really bear them man. The time i wake up, the time i have fun, the time i enjoy, the time i slack, the time i sleep. It really enjoyable even though there are thousands of quarrel between me and them. But i really love the schedule now. Gosh! Sec 4 , it gonna be a hard time for me, no playing like last time. Teachers and parent nagging me all the time. Haiixxx. If study is not important that will be great man. But is impossible. Why must we kids study. Seriously hate it. ):

I don't know why, i feel kinda useless. As 2010 is coming, but i break my promise again. I didn't fulfill it. Oh my gosh! Why am i so useless. Are you that important to me or what. Damn it. Who can give me the power to be heartless. ):

♥I wish you're here for me.♥

2009-12-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

214 POST:
Went for tuition as i was late cause i thought it start at 230 but it real time is 2pm. Gosh! I'm blur man. Then spend $25.90 on my things. Hehexxx. Then take bus home. Watch step up 1. Then com and teve. Tomo finally out le! Hope it will be fun lorhh. But it still the same. Haiixx. (:

I really don't know what i wish for. There are times i myself also get confuse. Who can help me?

♥Wonder will there be any christmas present?♥

2009-12-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

213 POST:
I wanna you!

♥When can i grow up, maybe 3 more years?♥

2009-12-23T21:36:00.005+08:00

212 POST:
I was surprise that i could get out my cage for today. Cause i didn't expect. Hahass. Meet up peixuan us usual. Then did our stuff. Then went to Daiso. And i spend like $9 while she spend $3 lorhh. Hahass. Hmmm, then went to chit chat. And play some games. Then take train home. Reach my house, She cook noodles for me. Then wrap our present till 12. Then dad and me bring her to the bus stop before that i treat her drink green tea. Hahass. I'm lame i know. Then say bye bye. Went home and start blogging. Wondering what will we do tomo? Can we celebrate. Haiixx. Sobb. Hope everything is fine? All is a act, hope is not. If not things will be worsen then. Freedom is what i wish from you. But can you fulfill it. I wonder.

I never think of you this few days. I wondering how are you? Are you fine, i think you're happy. Hope you're happy forever. (:

♥I hate this part right here.♥

2009-12-22T14:18:00.006+08:00

211 POST:
Hmmm, seriously wake up late around 1pm. Hahass. 1st time man, i myelf also tio shock. Then peixuan come my house study lorhh till 5 smth. Then she disiao me lorhh. So bad of her too. Sobb. Then eat dinner>tuition>home>Com>talk on the phone with bitch(maybe)>Sleeep>TOMO!! (:
I'm not going to listen, I'm so sorry. But i would like you to know that if you think i'm going to turn to bad or watever i would do it when I'm sec 2. Why will i have to wait till I'm sec 3. Why can't you just think, before you scold me or do any decision. I'm so sorry for not listening. But i won't turn to bad, don't worry. I just want some freedom before sec 4 start. I still got do my homework still. I hope we can have a nice talk or watever. So you could understand my feeling, but i don't think you will ever. Sobbb. When can this war ever stop before it turn to like some crazy thing. Freedom is all i wanted, is that so hard from you? I really don't understand. Staying at home alone is like in the jail man just that house has better environment than jail. How i wish you're reading this. Foolish thinking, i know. That the distance between you and me. You ask me to stay home ask me not to use com. I already tolerate all your craps le. What more you want? I'm going out, like i say. I have my reason, i don't mind what you say. Cause i know that i didn't do any wrong things jiu can le. We're like the two parallel line that can never meet.

I can never go back to the time when i was small like a kiddy that smile when i have a sweet. Is hard to smile brightly, being a baby is better than being a teenager, or adult. How i wish I'm a baby now. But i know is impossible i have to face the fact even though i hate it.

♥Can anyone tell me what the fucking meaning about family? Cause i don't.♥

2009-12-21T23:57:00.006+08:00

210 POST:
Happy Twinnie day wor! 1 year 5 month le uhs. Hahass. ILY! Although we're not so close as last time but at least is better than last time. Hahass. And thank's for just now uhs. And see if the guy got reply you anot? Waiting man. :D
Early morning have a good quarrel with mummy or i should say a good scolding from her. Cause i didn't even say anything back to her. But just listen what she say. God damn it. Haiyo. Luckly my mood is not spoil. Hahass. Thank's to them! (:
How i wish i could leave here, i couldn't understand what you say. You say you have been been bearing with my attitude or going out with me from january till now. But you never know that i been bearing for you guys from primary 6 to now. Don't force me to say i shouldn't. Seriously it suck. I hate you. Please larhh use your fucking brain and think did you ever care for me? Say you do but you don't. Say you understand me but you don't. Don't ever try to control me cause you won't win. I rather everyone think that i'm bad or watever. I don't bother cause i won't bother what you guys say. Is your mouth let you be it. Don't make me say something i shouldn't. Don't make me do what i don't wish too. Cause i changed. Fuck off. I know i suck. I'm the worst in study, i'm the most lian. As a family you shouldn't be saying me all this. But you're the one that start it. I sometimes wonder am i even part of it? I don't feel i'm part of it. I don't feel happy instead i'm emoing when i reached home. Wth is this. A family, Sorry i think i don't know what the meaning of that. You make me, i'm just changing the way you hurt me. How i wish there is someone telling my parent now? How i wish there is someone helping me. Gosh! Parent ban me from going out. Fuck it. How silly of me thinking that i have pass the sadness in sec 3, thinking that life will be better, but i'm still back in square one. Parent couldn't understand me. The distance between me and you is longer than i expected.

♥I need someone that never walk away from me.♥

2009-12-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

209 POST:
Today wake up around 1230 as last night i sleep around 3 smth. Then get ready and headed to tuition le. Had a quarrel with dad. Gosh! Wanted to buy a dress at muacks. But forget to bring cash. Haiixx. Next time then. Buy two honeydew sago + mini pearl to make me alive in tuition. Hehexx. Then dad fetch me home. Headed to cousin house to celebrate early christmas, as he think that we will have our own thing on 25, so plan this early. Hehexx. Actually i quite love the present i brought. Hahass. But too sad had to exchange le. And i get a bottle in return. Hope Biao sao will love the photo frame i give her. (: Then headed home now using com. Hope tomo is better.

I need someone that never walk away from me. I need someone that will always be there when i need. I need someone that can hold me walk through this path. I need someone to lean on. I need someone to listen to my sorrow. I need someone to tell me they love me. I need someone to message with. I need someone to watch movie with. I need someone to protect me from "danger". I need someone like him but i still can't find him.

♥I just satisfy what i have now cause last time life was better.♥

2009-12-19T00:21:00.003+08:00

207 POST:
To people i maybe very dumb. Or girl that can never satisfy. Yarhh, it true. Cause seriously last time was far far better than now. It totally suck. I'm sorry for not being happy for what i have. Cause i seriously can't as i'm holding back my tears, and try to act like nothing happen. ):

Can my christmas present? Be fulfill. All i want is someone to lean on. A good guy and last long bitch. A happy family. How i wish it will come true. Santa Claus please make my wish come true.

♥Christmas wishes please come true.♥

2009-12-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

208 POST:
* Finally photo upload! I'm not lazy le.
Oh my gosh! Christmas is coming mean $ fly again. Hahass. I'm going to buy present for my lovess one too. Hehexx. Hope those who get my present will love it. Hahass. But there are limited larhh. I'm not so rich man. Hahass. Today wrap present, with lots of newspaper. They will confirm have a hard time man. Clever me! (:

It okay, i accept being w/o you. Is just something i have to get used too.
Sometimes i myself also don't know what i want. Is it you or you? Gosh. Maybe it not you, cause is just the moment we have fun with. Maybe i'm just missing the moment. Maybe i still love him. I don't like him. I love another him.

♥I'm still in the past where i don't belong.♥

2009-12-18T09:08:00.005+08:00

206 POST:
*NOTED, Quite emo post:
I was so lucky that i'm all right for yesterday man. Hahass. Freedom is all i need now. Cause i don't want to rot at home and thinking all those useless stuff man. No choice telling parent they don't understand me. I can't possibly tell them as a reason they are going to kill me then. If i have ap arent that can heart to hear talk about everything include BGR. That will be best man. Haiixx. Gosh! Who can understand me. I want to have a heart to heart talk. Gosh! Simply tired to be Audrey. I don't want to be independent. Being independent make me tired. Hard to trust, harder to say it out. That me, the useless me. If i have one listener or adviser by my side all long, that will be great. Smile in the outer, but crying in the inner. I don't regret being alone and i finally accept it. Accept that you don't belong to me. But i just couldn't get you out of my stupid mind. I don't know why. I failed badly. Just give me something that make me forget you. It not advisable to love too deep, cause the deeper you love, the wound is hard to recover. Maybe that is called love. The one you love is not the one that love you. That why people get hurt most of the time. Who can help me? ):

♥It always hard to leave the one you loved.♥

2009-12-17T11:34:00.006+08:00

205 POST:
*Too lazy to upload photo.
What i want is what i can't never have. I think life is suppose to be like this. When the someone you love leave you, then we started to regret what we have done. Blaming on ourselves and wishing that time could pause and restart everything. But this is life. We have no choice but to accept. So i wish everyone could really think before they say. Cause sometimes words hurt. And cherish the ppls beside you before they leave you. And tell them you love them. And if there any misunderstanding speck out it will be better than keep everything in silent. Cause i regretted but i know is no use. There is nothing i can do, i guess. Simply wishing you to be back but i know is impossible to be back. But why do i have the stupid hope. I mean this is totally suck right? I shouldn't have any hope. I'm out of your life. We're like strangers. Oh, damn it. Is there any medicine or injection or any thing to stop me from loving you. I hope i have it.

I suck, totally suck to the core. I'm useless tooo.

♥我该不该勇敢的离开.♥

2009-12-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

204 POST:
Life is the same like before, nothing special to talk about. Just need $ to spend on my clothing. Haiixx. Jiayou's man! (:

Maybe i haven't really forget everything. Just go back to the last time me. That useless me again. I hate it, it suck to the max.

♥我不该在这时候说了我爱你要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气♥

2009-12-15T23:29:00.005+08:00

203 POST:
Life is simple. But we humans make it complicated. Saw a few dress in hougang mall. Gosh! Is chio de. But don't think daddy is going to give money then. Have to use mine. Gosh! I'm broke. ):

* I'm not gonna care what your feeling seriously. All i want was simple why can't you just let me? Did i really very over. I didn't really come late right. I can't be the perfect girl you wish to be. I'm Audrey, this is me. Is for you to accept what i am. I can never be what you wanna me to be. Can you just give me some freedom i need. Next years, do you think will i have any freedom. Hellooo, this is holiday man. Can't you just let me relax. The distance between me and you is longer than i expected. I really don't know how to communicate anymore. It totally suck and spoil my mood each time. Why can't we just be like last time like i was primary. Isn't that good? Why must you change to someone i don't even know how to talk too. Secret can't say to you anymore. Like there is something caught in between us. I don't like this feeling. I hate it. But you never care, you never ask me how i feel. Am i not that important to you. Or to you, others are important than me. Seriously, it suck to the core. We're are two parallel line that can never meet each other. How i wish time could go back, so i can have you back again?
** Must you be such a suker saying that you will come. And tell me all kinds of rubbish. In the end, what i get was nothing. A promise from you is meant to be broken. Is all craps, wasting my time and my money. Shouldn't believe you at all larhh. Seriously regretted.

You're not in my mind today. Clapss. (:

♥当我们安静也做了决定却不要再见你/♥

2009-12-14T22:32:00.007+08:00

202 POST:
Too busy with things and feel so tired after everything. Tomo will going to be a harder cause i will have tuition at night. Gosh! Thank's to that kelvin. Haiixx.

I'm not trying to be emo, but i just couldn't control. Just let me write all those craps here. Thank's for being considerate. Here it go :
I think i know what is the meaning le. Maybe i really shouldn't bother too much about what i means . I already want to forget. I will never think of things that again cause is stupid and impossible to become reality. Why should i? I really cannot control anymore. Being stupid is not something i love to be. I really wish there is someone telling me that he will be there for me. I really know that choosing someone that love you is million better than choosing someone you love. But love is something i couldn't control. How i wish i can. How i wish there are someone who could listen to my grumbles? Where are you, i need you badly. Not to be at home is the only way for me to stop thinking about you. How i wish i could leave here. Leave everything behind. Leave you.

♥I just need someone to hear my grumbles and be with me.♥

2009-12-13T16:31:00.009+08:00

201 POST:
Wait up around 1230pm, then get already for tuition. Dad bring me there, mum pei me eat lunch then go cut her hair. Then i went for tuition. Tuition, tuition. tuition finally end. Then dad fetch me home. Currently at home. Will be going to hospital to see grandpa. Must get well. Then tomo guess will be the same man. Gosh! Boring. I'm going to spend my $30 sia. Due to the clothing i saw at muacks. It so chio. Haiixx. ):

Xiaotian: Wow! Don't know that you'll miss me sia. 2 weeks never see you le. I also miss you seh. Hahass. Meet up sooon. Hope you can stay overnight wor. (:
You: Don't know. What wrong with you. Are you really unwell or are you just avoiding me from last time till now? I really don't know what i have done wrong. But how i wish time could go back so i won't hurt you. Give me a chance to be like last time we're. I don't wanna lost a friend like you. No one wants. I really miss those moments that with you. Do you ever?
Rachel: Cheer up man! (:
Peixuan: Haiyo, don't say i not good larhh. Didn't write you. Hahass. Hmmm, Sianxx lorhh. See you tomo for dance. Don't sleep too late if not tomo can't wake up again. Gosh! ):

* Someone special but not now anymore.
I don't need you around like last time. I finally learn how to move on w/o you. Cause you don't need me like how i need you. I'm finally awake by now. I won't care the things you done or say, cause is a past that we share, and not the future anymore. You can leave me w/o a tears so do i. I'm not weak as you think, i'm not that devoted anymore. Even there are times i think that you do, but actually is not. Why should i lie to myself saying that you still do. Is killing me like hell. How i wish you could tell me that you don't love me anymore.

What do you mean by that " By letting him go, you're bringing him closer?"

♥哭过就好了.♥

2009-12-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

200 POST:
Hellloooo! Finally is my 200 post le. Hehexx. When to Dhoby with peixuan to watch New moon. Oh my gosh! I think is nice too. Hahass. Then train back to sengkang. Went home awhile then went to eat dinner. Meet a weird person which was like so piss me and my daddy off. Hahass. Then went to uncle house to see grandpa. Hahass. And talk to my cousin. Hehexx. Now return home. And use com. Tomo will be having tuition le. (:

I can get used to it.

♥I started to cry which stated the whole world laughing. But i didn't see.♥

2009-12-11T15:22:00.005+08:00

199 POST:
I was shock that i wake up around 1.30pm. Hahass. First time seh. Then cook noodles for peixuan. Then she bathe and leave le. Now using com. Later tuition. Sianxxx. Haiixx. Meet up with Hidayah and Jasmine. Sorry uhs! I was late cause i got some problem. Then tuition, receive weird msg from nicholas tay. Hahass. He kinda werid. Then receive another happy msg from dad. Saying going to chargi airport to ice-cream! Hehexx. To celebrate my birthday even though tomo we're going to celebrate too. Hahass. I'm happy! I hope it can last like forever. (: Tomo meeting xuan to watch movie the twilight saga New moon! Hehexx. Then eat dinner with family. :D

Seriously, i finally understand the truth behind. I finally can live w/o you after this few days happening. Say bye to you my love! The time i spend alone is enough. I shouldn't staying at this position anymore. I should move on. Find you true love too! I will fine mine one days. Last time, i will say ILY. Believe me. No more you anymore. (:

♥I love today! Because of you guys.♥

2009-12-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

198 POST:
Today was my birthday! Happy birthday audrey. Gosh, i'm fucking mad now. Hmmm, first or all, wake up get bathe. Go compass with a slipper and come back with my barefoot. Cause my slipper is giving me blister. Wth! First time wear slipper till blister. -.- Then go Dhoby with peixuan. Reach there slack talk. Some ppls sing me birthday song. So sweet of them even though i don't know them well. Hahass. Then train to compass meeting them. Bad news then. I'm fine after awhile. Then called zhiqing about the cake. Meet some kaobei kia. Forget about it then. Taxi to puggol end to eat sakura! Wow! Then got some error. Some reach there le say no $$. -.- Then the rich jovi help them pay 1st. Hahhass. Rich man! Then get some food. Eat, talk, gossip, talking photo, talk about some waiter. Hahass. You know i know uhs. Hehexx. Then during 9pm then wanting to cut cake, but due to the wind we change to another place. Hahass. Then buy 8 drinks, but we still left $35.50. Gosh, so wasted sia. Then my daddy the chauffeur bring the 10 of us to compass point. Hehexx. ILY! Then peixuan staying my house tonight. Quite shock right? Hope xiaotian can make it today too. (:

BIG BIG Thank's to those come: Peixuan. Jaslin. Zhiqing. Weiping. Singree. Jovi. Nixon. Azriel. Bernard.
BIG Thank's to those present: (Zhiqing, Weiping, Rose, Geolin). Weijun
NORMAL Thank's to those msg wishes: Jianhui. Peixuan Piggy. Ray. Bernard. Joel. Weiming. Rose. Rachel SweetieLover. Jessery Airne. Tony. Jessie Auntie. Liyun Wifey. Bo hao. Mummy. Weili. Wayne. Apex Hidayah. Rowena Honey. Izaak Asshole. Singree. Weiping.

♥Tomo is the day that i always wish for.♥

2009-12-09T20:02:00.003+08:00

197 POST:
I wishing tomo could faster come and slowly end! Hope tomo will be a good day for me and no stupid things around bothering me. Happy! Hope so. (:

helllooo!
Want to take a look at this website www.tortoiz.com
if interested please msn/text me.
thank's! (:

You're here, i can feel it.

♥i'm happy with you around.♥

2009-12-07T01:46:00.003+08:00

196 POST:
Saturday: Went to bugis junction with peiyi to see liang wen ying.
Sunday: Go tuition, at hougang celebrate my birthday & uncle birthday at 10 dec.

♥Do you know what i wish for. Is all you.♥

2009-12-04T01:04:00.007+08:00

195 POST:
*All the photo i think i will update on monday. Cause there will be lots of photo taken on weekends. As I'm busy with having fun. Stay tune. (:
Oh, calculate that by my birthday i will have $180. But must be working the next few days. Grrr. Simply tired, but enjoyable man! Hahass. Hope i have that much $ too. Grrr. Don't know how to tell my dad that i need money from him. Grrr. Hope he will give me the $ and my present too. I need $ too. Just like anyone who is in need of cash! Grrr. How i wish i'm 16 so then i could get alot of jobs and good pay. Simply my blog is simple. There maybe emo words over here. If you can't stand me being emo, just stop viewing and press the X over there. So you won't be piss of. And writing here is the only way i could express my feeling. So stay here if you concern, get lost if you trying to be lame.

Being together need two party to agree but break up only one party will do. The other party will then suffer. But that is love. No choice. Dare to love dare to prepare to get hurt.

You:I don't know you will view my blog de. Hahass. Basically I"m all right now. I jusy hope we can be like those good friends man.
She: Hope we can meet up soon!
Peiyi: WOW! You book me on 2 both weekend le sia. See you tomo! (:
Jaslin: Next tuesday eat pizza again wor plus her.
Peixuan: Don't keep fang me fei ji uhs. Hahass. Thursday wor. Hahass. (:
Xiaotian: I miss you seh! Long time no see you le. (:

♥I hate the way you say about me.♥

2009-12-03T20:11:00.006+08:00

194 POST:
*lazy to upload this few days photo. Soon i will upload le. Take care! (:
Intend to eat breakfast before 11am reach. But due to smth pissing me off. Making me scolding words out of my house like no one else business. Lucky no one man. Hahass. Then in the end order $2.50 meal. Then waited for jaslin to come. Go pizza hut. Thought that i could still eat but in the end i waste the damn nice pasta. Gosh! Went to change my clothing then off to hougang. Still 5 smth. Went to mall shop shop, rest. Then jaslin and peixuan eating i'm not eating marhh. Then went to rooftop the playground meet some kaobei kia sia. Only know how to bully 8 years boy. Haiixx. Childish man. Grow up larhhh. Then went to shop shope wanted to buy a legging then in the end bo buy. Buy mango snowice then peixuan jaslin buy vanilla + kewi but jaslin say mine is nicer. Hahass. Went to take 27, wait for their 372 then walk home.

I finally understand why i couldn't live w/o you, or couldn't forget cause you're the one help me when i need and let me trust you like i can never ever trust ppls. I really wish i could be that to other ppls too. So i won't be so miserable anymore. But you're gone, that all i can say. The incomplete me means me w/o you. I wish there are someone willing to listen and never leave me like you will. But it seems like it hard to find one like this. I'm waiting for that veri day, waiting for you or waiting for him. But i know that i still love you from the day i meet you till now. It can never be fade unless you hurt me to the core.

You never know the feeling for being alone cause you can never be alone.
Happy 15 moths wor! ( only some know)

♥Wat i want was simple, but you simply broke it.♥

2009-12-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

194 POST:
Today was simply tired by all this. But still with it. The hot-dog was nice right? Peixuan. Hahass. Jiayou's, i can de!

Maybe i'm to sensitive. But this is the feeling you give me. It not my fault, is you're the one making me don't dare to. Cause i'm scare it happen again. The feeling suck, okay. Hope you could understand ba. And not trying to blame me or gossip me.

Fucking hate myself seriously. Why am i missing you?

♥Is hurting me throughout.♥

2009-12-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

193 POST:
Haiixx. Wishing that my dad is one that can make my $$, and spend it. Hahass. I'm mad le! Whole body is pain seh.

We're meant to be like this. I don't know why i miss talking to you. Those moment when i'm bored, or i mood swing. You're always trying to cheer me up like a friend would do. But also make me dulan by your msg, cause you're so blur at times. But i hope you're back as a friends!

Hope you know that i'm the good person after all. And the person you could believe! Hope we can be like last time.

Imissyou; iloveyou!

♥I look at the sky, imagine that you're beside me.♥

2009-11-30T22:29:00.007+08:00

192 POST:
I seriously need $, parent don't want me work cause of my result. I can understand but then how about the things i want. I ask you guys but you guys say no. Grrr. I know is kinda ex. So now i didn't ask le. But i want lorhh! Grrr.

I thought friends but is still weird. Don't know is all think too much or what. But that the feeling you gave me. I seriously hate it. Don't know why. We can't talk like last time. We can't be that close like last time cause is different. But how i wish i could get it back the moment. Not like now all those weird moment. we have now.

Can you stand by my side? The moment we share the fun we have. The memories that i remember for life, cause is you.

最熟悉的陌生人
还记得吗
窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗
是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空
渐渐阴霾

心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦

心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦

我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀?
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦

♥I hope you're the one that i see when i open my eyes.♥

2009-11-28T23:16:00.003+08:00

191 POST:
Today was a terrible night cause i couldn't sleep well. Every hour i did wake up. Grrr. I can't believe that Saturday i can wake up so early. Cause i always wake up at 11am. I know i'm a pig. Hahass. Watch FU QI AN KANG. Then eat breakfast. Then went to sleep again. Use com. Eat dinner. Then watch teve. Use com. Kinda lame and boring! OH GOSH! Today will be my last Saturday as i will be having tuition. God bless me. Hahass. Hope tomo will be a better day for me and you! Hope i will fix my phone and dad will buy a phone too.

No one can see nor feel it, the love i have for you. Is simply only me and you could feel it. Cause the love i have you is special. I wanna hold your hands like forever. Give me a chance to say ILY! Give me a chance to be by your side. I know love couldn't last forever. But even i have less than one day being with you. I will also be contented. Just say i'm the one that you're looking for. ILY! Can you feel that i'm true to you all this while.

♥Fuck off!♥

2009-11-27T15:56:00.001+08:00

190 POST:
Wake up around 11am, bathe, eat breakfast. Then went to get already go johor. Hahass. With neighbour. Wow. Then saw many neighbour too. Hahss. Then dad got information saying that woodland traffic really jam like siao. Then went to tuas. Hahass. Also jam like for 3 hour or going to 4 hour. I think if woodland can be like many hour more than us le. Then went to jusco see mum friend. Then went to makan. Seriously slow sia. You can wait for your turn like 20 min. Then my burger sandwish and the waffles haven't come. We have wait for more than 20 minutes le. But they still say wait a minutes. Diao. Then we wait finally come then went to see friend house. It damn chio larhh. And the dog is like in love with my brother keep hugging him. Hahass. Then went back to jusco to buy stuff like bag. 2 for $50. I buy one and peiyi mum buy one. Hahass. Then we intend to sing. So quickly went to johor sentosa. Bro and dad went to ask if there is a room for us. Then they say got 9-12am. Hooray! Then others went to buy somethings then, dad company me see clothing then saw a legging. Actually is $39.90 but in the end cost $30 lorhh. See i so good. Help dad save $$. Then went to sing le. Total for the singing cost around $136. Then go eat dinner around 1 plus. Then went to back to singapore. HAHA. Then went home, bathe. Watch teve. But kana nag then off it. Can't sleep sia 3am sleep wakeup sleep wakeup. Wth! I'm so tired.

Those song remind me of you, i don't know why. But i know that i did control very well yesterday.

♥I'm trying to hide my tears. Trying to hide the love i have for you.♥

2009-11-26T13:42:00.006+08:00

189 POST:
I'm physically fine okay? No worry man! Hahass. I'm gonna be all right larhh. I'm who. AUDREY OW YING YING lehh. You thought what, i'm strong indeed. (:

Delicate to you:
After that thing you tell me, i think everything change le. I don't know why things become like this. But so sorry for all those short replies but i really nothing to say about anymore. Maybe cause of what you say. But i didn't blame you larhh. But is just too sudden for me to even think. Cause i thought you would understand as we share some secrets, i didn't know this could happen. What i can say now is only sorry to you. Hope one day, you could understand how i'm feeling. But i have my reason for not saying yes. If one days i really say yes, please treat it as a no. Cause i'm not in a correct state. Cause i know very well of myself. Sorry to hurt you. I didn't expect this. Is really a total shock. I'm SORRY! Cheer up! ):

Feel like crying. So the next day i could told myself i don't love you anymore! Yesterday would be the last day i cried for you.

♥Missing you always. Crying over you yesterday. Wishing you're here with me today onwards.♥

2009-11-25T23:30:00.010+08:00

188 POST:
With peixuan. Went to anchorvale eat breakfast>Compass Mrt>Plaza Sing>Orchard Ion>Bugis Junction>Iluma>Bugis street>Mrt back to sengkang>Compass mac for dinner>My house>1050 to bus stop 372>Home sweet home for both of us.

I have quite a fun day and busy day. It can be a bad day for xuan for the 2 hour and half. Hahass. At least we get to earn $11. Hahass. Actually quite fun talking to customer. Hahass. But quite tiring to stand up for whole day. My leg is aching. Hahass. Hope there is a job for me ba! But dad kinda disagree. Gosh! And it quite a funny reason. Although it quite true, but you can never accept it. cause it kinda diao. Ask him give me $. He also don't want. Grrr, is irritating larhh. $, where are you? Hope there is one ba for me before holiday end. Hope so! Haiixx. Stupid holiday! Grrr. After reading the article about the 5 guys and 1 girl. Somehow become racist and to guys too. Haiixx. And if you know what i'm talking about. If no, read english newspaper that will help you understand what i'm saying, i really hope the girl is all right man! But i don't think she will be, but god bless her ba.

I know we took many picture now then i realise but no choice, We're too zilian le. Don't like it leave this blog! Stop yours craps over here. Cause we just love to take photo. :D

I asking myself can i accept him? Or am i just wanted to hide the truth of mine. So that only 3 people know it and not more. I'm asking myself again and again. But i think i just love you too much. I'm so sorry. I don't want to hurt him. I wish i won't, i hope i'm not that selfish to hurt the one that love me. I'm trying to control. W/o you life suck! Everything is in a messsss.

♥Is a false alarm?♥

2009-11-24T22:27:00.003+08:00

187 POST:
Went for dental then to dance. Fucking teacher kaobei me and some sec 3. It was like wth. Seriously shouldn't go lorhh. Thank's to iris! Hahass. Kidding. After dance, iris company me go eat roti. Then went to peixuan hosue slack. Then went home. Watch teve, eat dinner. Use com. Thought i have a work but in the end need 16, i was like diao. Talk to him so much then he say 16 only. Shouldn't waste so much time on msging sia. Grrr. Blur guy. People intro man! I need $$$ badly. (:

life would be better with you, life would suck w/o you, my dear.

♥Wanna be crazy so i won't feel anything.♥

2009-11-23T23:14:00.005+08:00

184 POST:
Went out with xiaotian>Sleep>Dinner>Computer>Teve>Sleep.
It the same for everyday and it only for me. Haiixx. Sobbb sia. Neeed $. Tomo got dance not sure if i can wake up on time. Haiixx. Then after that where should i go then? Life is boring. Sobb. Hmmm, i need $ so i could spend happily.

I bet you will say you can't make it, i have experience it le. It okay. I should get used to it. No use holding on to it. You don't love me anymore, don't you? Not like last time is has been so long le. I'm afraid that i could take you as him. I'm not trying to be bitch over here.But i just scare i couldn't control myself. Go away! I don't wanna hurt you my friends. You're the one that listen 1/4 of my problem. Even you're the one i say most too. So i wish we could continue this friendship. I know it hurt you alot although you didn't show it out or say to anyone. But i wish you could so i could understand what you're thinking now. But what i could say now is SORRY to you! I hope you could forgive me and continue our friendship like last time. I can't control my feeling for him. Thank's for listening to my craps and feeling at times. I don't wanna lose you as a friend.

♥Lost one entertainer.♥

2009-11-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

184 POST:
Breakfast>sleep agian>grandma near bugis>Redhill>home>bathe>watch teve>sleep
During redhill there are about 15 ppls eating. There are many drink
- 2 hot milo
- 2 ice milo
- 2 winter milo
- 1 tea with more milk
- 2 tea
- 1 lemon and lime
- 1 kickapo
Hahass. Cool sia. Being a waitress is not that easy actually. God damn it! (:

Don't want to think about it le. It making me miserable. Who can i share with?

♥ANGELA rock! ILY!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-11-21T22:51:00.003+08:00

184 POST:
Actually today went to see angela with xiaotian, but she couldn't make it last minuted. And my primary school friend who live above me. Called me and ask me if she could come too. Obviously, it will be great! Then went to compass tap the card she forget to bring her purse. Hahass, wait for her at mrt and saw brian. Talk to him awhile then peiyi come. On the way, brian shout that my bag has cigarette. Everyone was like looking at me i was like wth. Then train to outram. Then to jurong east. Then couldn't find the shuttle bus. Then we ask a auntie, she was stupid. Okay? Can't you see so big. Me and peiyi was like diao, if we could see why we will ask you larhh. Dumb! Then take shuttle bus to IMM. Then went toilet buy my favourite HONEYDEW WITH SAGO PLUS PEARL. I don't know that peiyi also like this. We're retard when we know. Then went to bus disc. Take many picture. She is damn chio with her red hair. I think i saw her sister, it was exactly the same face as her. I was like shock! Then went to toilet change to 2cm shoes cause my stupid high heel is hurting me. Gosh! 1st time wear that shoes. Went to mac slack awhile, peiyi buy bag. Then train to expo. Saw one funny guys. Hahass. Laugh out loud sia. Then went to see her live singing again. I didn't expect my dad will let me. ILY! Around 9.45pm, Then went to buy some drink then peiyi dad fetch us. Went home see till dad emoing cause everyone not at home. Talk to him awhile, then i have to pangsei him le. Cause i going to find peiyi for all the picture/video we take just now! It was nice. Around 1 smth i went home. Reach home watch teve around 3 smth sleep! GOOD NIGHT! ILY! (:

I hope you're kidding me.

♥Things are getting worst than last time.♥

2009-11-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

183 POST:
Went to school for E math, which i was kinda shock that i wake up in time. Hahass. Then decided to go to AMK hub to watch movie with Tony, Szechi, Jaslin, Izaak. Hahass. 2012, rock okay? I love it yarhh. Quite a touching show. Hmmm, although is somehow fake ba. If you imagine that is gonna happen, you'll find it nice. Then went to pool but underage. It totally embarrassed. Then went to hougang pool to see Tony and joel the pro. Hahass. Me, szechi and jaslin did actually have a hard time in playing. Then walk out with jaslin. I take bus she take mrt. Bye!

I can't believe what you say, i'm sorry. But i don't have the feeling. You should know very well. I hope i didn't hurt you alot. But i hope you could understand me. By being friends is better for me and you. If not is kinda weird for us to become more than just friend.

We cry for the one we love. But we hurt the one tat love us.

♥You have no idea how important you're to me.♥

2009-11-19T20:34:00.005+08:00

182 POST:
Serioulsy nothing to blog anymore. Grrr. Normal day lorhh. Haiixx. Hmmm, tomo going school then going out le. Wow! I'm mad. I miss izaak. Hahass. Don't anyhow think uhs, ppls. =.= Can see angela le this saturday with xt. Lovess her tons. Hope my phone can be repair. Grr, it keep hanging. Stupid phone! I need $$$.

You have no idea the pain you give me by leaving me here w/o you.
I didn't blame you but i just wish i could know the reason that all.
But you just couldn't tell me. How much i means to you is written down by your action.
You kills me.

♥I hope they can make it.♥

2009-11-18T23:36:00.001+08:00

181 POST:
Haiyo, i thought it can make it ba. But it seems like i think too much le. Sobbb. Cancel. Wth!

♥I can never get the answer from you, cause you're lying to me all the time.♥

2009-11-16T10:57:00.003+08:00

180 POST:
I overslept again then i didn't go for dance today. Haiixx. Too pig le, but no choice. Try to wake up tomo for dance. Hope i won't be late ba. Haiixx. Wondering what will i do today? Gosh, is damn boring. Haiixx. Angela is coming. But i feel like going to the airport, to see her sia. Haiixxx. Suck.

Myloveforyouahsnevergodownfromthefirsttmeiseeyou.

♥I'm not sure i'm dumb or what. My mind is confused.♥

2009-11-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

179 POST:
Wake up 11 smth, get already went to eat breakfast. Then fetch sister to work. Then went to watch teve. And sleep till 430pm, now to fetch bro to orchard to bbq, so good! Then dad so good pei me go drink soya then to hougang. To shop i was like so shock! Then went to buy a dress and belt. Then see dad eat lunch then i intend to skip as i'm not so hungry. Jian fei marhh. Hahass. Then went home. Use com! Later then eat dinner. Hahass. Around 11. =.=

Iwishyouareherewithme,thenimnotafraid.

♥I need time to get used to it, i'm not a superwoman.♥

2009-11-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

178 POST:
Wake up around 7am, damn it. Should reach school around 7am. Haiixx. Then rush to school, reach school around 730am. I should say i'm fast. Then went in to school with peixuan, iris, linglei. Hahass. Then do lots of thing with sec 1 and many stuff. Tons of things to do. Then bus to anchorvale with xuan to swimming. Went we change our clothes. I forget about my phone and left it there. Lucky a kind soul woman ask me if i lost my phone if is me go to the mac. I was like so thankful to her. I say thank's. And run like a mad woman. I was the manager. The manager take out the phone and give me. I was thank's so happily. I couldn't think how am i gonig to live w/o my phone. Haiixx. Finally! Kinda funny i know. Then we're totally noob. Then went to the swimming pool and swim. After that went to pao the water. Then was ask to play the slide. Grrr, slide sia. Okay, i'm noob. Don't laugh. Then after 30 minutes. Finally i sit on the slide suddenly i change of my mind. I stood up again. The two life guard was like looking at me with those kinds of face. I was like so paiseh. Then think of someone and so paiseh i have the bravery to go down. Actually it was not so scary at all. Then went to baby pool to play water. Then went to bathe. Go eat mic chicken. Saw the KHJ hairstyle. Golden hair. Wow. But xuan told me is not handsome. Then i was like total idiot. Tell her that let's go. I just want to rmb his nice back view. Actually my sister have the same thinking too. Hahass. Went to compass buy earstick. Then take some photo, then shop shop. Pei her wait 372, then walk home. Bath, eat some food then gotta go to god birthday thingy. Then i was sleeping in the car. Then a dinner from 730-1130. I was like wth. Then went to the toilet like 4 times. Saw some ppls. And a funny guy. Hahass. Then car back. Reach home, actually want to watch teve de. But bro want to watch football then can't. Then sleepppppp. Good night!

You'retheenergythatineedalways

♥I think this is the fact that you gave me, that you no need me anymore.♥

2009-11-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

177 POST:
Today didn't went for chemistry as i was late for it then get already to go malayisa. It quite relaxing even though is in a short time yet enjoyable. Then doing the same thing again. (:

Fiallyknowthemeaningyousay,ithinkistoolateforme.

♥I can slowly get use to the surrounding i have cause is a must.♥

2009-11-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

176 POST:
Around eleven smth, went to lan with xiaotian. i thought i will be the one that late but she is the one. I even have time to shop. Hahass. Went to the normal lan, but i seem so shuey all com can't use. Grrr. After that we haven't even play, we went to other lan that xiaolan intro. Sorry auntie! Play till 3pm, buy drink. Then xiaotian pei me wait for bus then walk home. Thank's! Hahass. Then reach home, sit at my bed, i can actually sleep. Lools. As i was waiting for the auntie to come my house to clean. Grrr. It pissing me off due to the long time of waiting for her. Then she finally came, pack my thing,then dinner come le. Watch teve. Use com. Hahass. Who is owl? Can feel free to msg me. Cause i'm bored at night. But i can't entertain ppls. Hahass.

Ihatethisfeeling.

♥Baby, you're my only. You no need to worry.♥

2009-11-11T12:58:00.006+08:00

175 POST:
Wake up around 10 smth, use com till i forget the time for dance. Then i was late again. Hahass. I don't think i can never be early ba. Then ask teacher if i go home early as i was meeting my sister to watch movie at amk. I wait for the stupid bus for like 15 minutes. Then run home. Bathe and blow my hair, get my stuff and out of house. Actually i was okay within 15 minutes. I was kinda shock, walk to compass to wait for 159. For 10 minutes. Then reach there find sister to eat subway. Then watch movie. Seriously the movie is rock, okay? Those who watched you know what i'm saying. But to those who didn't, is kinda sad cause i s a great movie. Hahass. Mrt home, my sister is going to be crazy as i am saying those stupid stuff and make her so piss of and mad. Hahass. Eating mr bean ice-cream, then dad calling ask us to go eat beancard. Drink soya then saw some lizard and what i do was shouting. There are some guys sitting beside us were shock too. Hahass. And keep looking as it was above them. Hahass. I'm being a kind soul as due to my shouting then they know. Hahass. Watch teve when reached home. In bed around 2smth. Lonely. ):

Don't ask me that when you feel lonely i'm not a robot or what, i have feeling. Treat me like a human, dude. Don't ever make me lost trust in love forever due to stupid question.

<爱很简单>

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日也去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
I LOVE YOU
无法不爱你
BABY
说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU
永远不愿意
BABY
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
I LOVE YOU
我一直在这里
BABY
一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU YES I DO
I LOVE YOU
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
OH NO
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
YES I DO

COME ON NOW

♥I know that i should learn to be independent.♥

2009-11-10T20:17:00.003+08:00

174 POST:
Today wake up around 830, and guess what i actually can make it. But went i reach there 372 leave. Shyt. I have to wait for 15 min for another 372. Oh gosh! I saw xiaotian and sixian. Then go up tgt. Sit with jaslin and felicia. Chit chat and do math question. Then went to eat lunch with the 2 girl and yixiang. Then say bye. Went to peixuan house put bag, then come back cause she have to take book for next year. Then help her carry uniform. Pei her fine teacher. Then saw "someone" i can say that i damn shuey. But lucky she didn't see me. Then went her house awhile. See her use com, then play audi awhile. Time for dance. Then went back school again. Quite lame. Dance till 530. Some really cmi, hope teacher won't scold marhh, i also have to buck up too! Then buy things to eat. Pei me wait for bus. Thank's uhs! Walk home, saw someone quite nice de. Haiiyo.

All i want was simple, but i just couldn't get it.

"Even when you think life is against you, don't ever give up!"
"True love does not come by finding the perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfect."

♥I'm so tired, to pretend that i'm all right.♥

2009-11-09T20:27:00.000+08:00

173 POST:
i went for school in the early morning for chemistry. But i'm late but at least i did come. Then went to slack meet up with peixuan. Then go dance. I was like damn tired. Haiyo, everyone was so shock to see her as she never come dance for months le. Hahass. Then after dance went to her house see baby. Then have some bites. Bused 372 home. Wait for sister to come back to eat. Then watch teve. Msg ppls to talk too. Then sleep le. For tomo if not i confirm can't wake up. Haiiyo.

If this is the love you say, i rather i don't want it cause i don't want to lie by you again and again. It kinda tiring of hearing your lies everyday. Saying how much you love me. I have enough of it.

♥I hope i can forget everything you did to me.♥

2009-11-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

172 POST:
I have forgotton what i have done today. So sorry!

I want to close my eyes and hide. Cause i don't want ppls to see my tears.

♥If everyday can be like this, that will be great!♥

2009-11-07T20:20:00.000+08:00

171 POST:
Today i sleep till 11am, watch FU QI AN KANG. Then eat lunch then went to sleep again. I know i'm pig right. Then around 6 smth, went to many placess. Wow! Dhoby>Orchard Ion>Bugis>Grandma house>Red hill (roti-prata). Hahass.

If life can be like this, happy forever that will be great.

♥I told myself i can overcome it.♥

2009-11-05T00:59:00.005+08:00

170 POST:
Today i was awake by firman call around 7am, which is like damn early. But i didn't pick up cause he hang up by the time pick up.=.= Then i went to sleep. Around 1030, i wake up and saw 8messages. I was like so shock sia. Suddenly so many ppls msg me. Then reply everyone. Then went to get ready to go out. Then meet xiaotian. At 1st it was hot then raining heavily like cat and dogs. =.= Me and xioatian was like so wet. Then take bus go home, thank's xiaotian and bernard for accompanying me to wait for the bus. Then it started to rain. =.= And saw one fellow but he gone. ): Being with you, is great. ILY. (:

I wish to have the moment with you two. You're my greatest, but now everything change. I can never get the moment back anymore.

♥You're not not there when i pray for your existence.♥

2009-11-04T13:02:00.002+08:00

169 POST:
I'm thinking craps again. I promise not to think about it again, cause it ruin me. But i just couldn't control my stupid mind. Don't feel like going dance later, but i have to increase my %. If not i won't get point for this year. And my SYF will be gone. Ohgosh, i regret for not going during school times, if i have i can slack during holiday. Grr. Who ask me larhh. Haiyo. Seriously regretted.

I pray to god wishing that you're here with me but my wish is not fulfill. When can i be fulfill, i hate being like this. Living in my world is suck. Living w/o you by my side, is like the fish live w/o water. I want you back so then my life could be prefect even though nothing seems to be right. How i wish i can, but i know that is not reality.
Hope tomorrow outing will be great!
Hope that day outing will be great and fun too! (hope so, no one know, maybe only 4. Hahass.)

♥I think that night will be a quite night like i expected.♥

2009-11-03T22:37:00.011+08:00

168 POST:
Today i was awake, and was ask to go to physic. Meet him then go school. Stupid izaak, in the end, my name is not there. Wth. Then chit chat, listen alittle. Then went to see someone. Then go for dance. Dance practice was normal, tiring and craps with Iris the most. As she is damn happy now wor. Someone return. Then went to buy cheese hotdog, bused home. And something stupid happen. =.= Fall asleep till 7pm. Eat dinner. Study awhile, watch teve then com. That my life, simply bored. Haiixx. FYI, newspaper report that human don't sleep less than 5 or more than 10 a day. Your life will be shorter. Not sure if is true! But is better to believe it since is report.

"Sometimes is hard to be strong when one needs. I'm not that strong like i look. I need someone eventually. Wish i can find someone to talk too like what other people are doing. Smiling in the outside but crying in the inner, cause my life has suck since January. And it not better. Maybe i meant to be like this. Sometimes i'm wondering, am i evil or what? But nothing came out. Is a unknown answer. Who can tell me the reason? I hate this feeling, it really suck. I just want a listener someone that could company me, is that so hard to ask for? Why could others have, but not me."

Thursday where should i go then? I'm bored.
Watch movie? Lan? Shopping?
Sianxxxx, hope tomo will be better for those have the same thinking with me.

Trademark-Only Love
Two a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the cross roads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
This is meant to be you're asking me
But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play me part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arm as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand mines apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough if we learn to trust
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our goodbye

You're telling me you're so confused.

♥I saw no one remember, accept you.♥

2009-11-02T12:30:00.008+08:00

Today alarm clock really didn't ring. Shyt, i'm late man. Around 8.15am reach school. Lucky miss toh never say anything. Lesson per normal then went to 7-11 to company weijun buy noodles. Who know that izaak go push him, and his noodles drop on the floor. The problem is that he didn't even eat one more man. Poor weijun. They see me eat then went to study awhile then out of school. Weijun pei me and izaak wait for 372 then he walk home. Then izaak bused 372 with me. Then home sweet home. Izaak you still owe me 2 present wor!

Neeeddd $
As my sister is looking at those website with many nice bag, making me wanting to buy le.
-$48.90 for bags
-$308 for I-touch
I'm seriously left with no money. Must save. ):

I finally understand the meaning of theirs, but it seems too late too even regret. Foolish me.

♥Human are weird. They can act as if they like the person but actually they hate the person.♥

2009-11-01T16:28:00.002+08:00

Actually today was a great day for me! And is finally man. They day i wanted and wished for. I brought two clothes from amk. And went to bugis with family to buy a bag wish i wanted. Hooray. Then went home study then watch teve.

It okay, i won't mind being the replacement for her awhile. But you should at least don't make me feel so important from the start. Making me feel so happy at the start, but how about the ending emoing. Huhh, seriously don't understand. I maybe talking craps or feeling over sensitive over here. But this is how i feel. I really don't understand. 'Don't put someone so important in your heart, it just make you tears."

Dan Hill-Sometimes when we touch
You ask me if I love you,
and I choked on my reply.
I'd rather hurt you honestly,
than mislead you with a lie.
And who am I to judge you,
on what you say or do;
I'm only just beginning,
to see the real you.
.
And sometimes when we touch,
the honesty's too much,
and I have to close my eyes and hide.
I wanna hold you till I die,
till we both break down and cry;
I wanna hold you,
till the fears in me subside.

Romance and all its strategies,
leave me battling with my pride.
But through the insecurities,
some tenderness surves.
I am just another writer,
still trapped within my truth;
a hesitant prize fighter,
still trapped within my youth.

And sometimes when we touch,
the honesty's too much,
and I have to close my eyes and hide.
I wanna hold you till I die,
till we both break down and cry;
I wanna hold you,
till the fears in me subside.

At times I'd like to break you,
and drive you to your knees;
at times I'd like to break through,
and hold you endlessly.

At times I understand you,
and I know how hard you've tried.
I've watched while love commands you,
and watched while love passed you by.
At times I think we're drifters,
still searching for a friend,
a brother or a sister,
but then a passion flares again.

And sometimes when we touch,
the honesty's too much,
and I have to close my eyes and hide.
I wanna hold you till I die,
till we both break down and cry;
I wanna hold you,
till the fears in me subside.

♥Nearly broke down again, can i be stronger?♥

2009-10-31T00:16:00.007+08:00

Actually everything is all right till physic lesson came, everything change. Mood become moody, nearly tears. Don't know when i become so weak ? Maybe w/o anyone beside make me become weaker. Haiyo, don't know what will happen that day? Will there be anyone even rmb, will there be anyone to be there. Haiyo. A big thank's to izaak tan zhi sheng! A secret between you and me. Shhh. Never been looking forward cause afraid of knowing the truth. Haiyo. Regret of not watching FAME. Wth, wasted such a nice movie, who has VCD?

My life have never been fully happy this year. Cause this year really suck. Heaven seems to be giving me many test wanted to test me to see if i can overcome it. This test include many tears, disappointment, no confidence to self and others. I'm not sure if i can overcome it. But i know i did lost before, but i did stand up and face it and even accept it. But during this time, many stupid thing have come in my mind, shed tears and many more. But this is part and parcel of life. In the end, i manage to overcome and be me. I believe there are more obstacles in life like showing me which are my true friends and which are just hypocrites. I will try to live each day with the fulllest. And now regret it anymore. Cause you're my 1st person that make feel regret.

Am i meant to be like this each day, can my life be any better
A pathetic bitch, i wonder. Her life can never be any better.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥I believe i'm going to get over it, cause i'm Audrey.♥

2009-10-30T15:49:00.011+08:00

Today was late for school, actually i could make it de. I reach le, but haven't walk in to the parade square. Somehow the school rules should change sia, if not many ppls will late even though they are in school. So my name is there, but lucky i didn't write late 2nd time. If not i have to do detention le. Heng uhs. Everything is the same. Then went to hall listening some debating about child punishment. Suddenly headache. Then went back to class. Saw yijun, jessery and and her mum chat awhile. Went back to class. Sleep awhile then kana call by someone telling me that i'm expelled. Hahass. Return her the badge. Bell ring, izaak pei me eat then bused home. And izaak say a funny joke about it. It quite true sia, i should ask her man. I think she will ask me go detention straight away w/o thinking. Actually is okay, i don't really mind and i'm not goona beg you man. Since i have done for 3 years, is enough i think. And to those who are, continue and jiayou's to be guai so that she won't aim you. I'm not sure if i write the letter confirm can promote marhh, still waiting for their reply. Haiyo, maybe can't. If i really can promote, i will really try my best and not slack anymore. And those not sure will promote de, must jiayou's tooo. Must pray hard with me! 3H 09, all the best! The year holiday will be the less fun and more studying due to my EOY. Haiyo, Cannot have jobs le>no $$$$>cannot buy things that adore. Sobbb. So starting to save $$$ now le. If not can't buy anything that i like. Grrrr. Life suck! Hoping tomo is a better day! :D

Life is unpredictable. Life have to go on w/o you. The world won't stop because of you. Life is like this, i will be all right from today on. Cause i know that life is like this. " No need someone so important in my life anymore, it just making me tears." Cause we have no right to choose but to change it and accept it. I will change my life, i don't want it to be like this. Everyone will fall, it just depend on are we willing to learn something or are we willing to stand up by ourselves and move on. Don't look back anymore, it won't do any good. It okay to cry, but don't run from the fact.

It must be my foolish part of thinking.
Cause i know the truth that you're not mine.
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